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Yeah! AT last! My improvement exams ended! Though today's paper was a wee-bit tough..no actually it wasn't. It was pretty easy...but..umm you see I always had tough time with chemistry. GOD-KNOWS-WHY. Half of my friends think am some weirdo from some weird planet...but...yeah I'd prefer physics any day to chemistry! Well...yeah even before I could finish the exam...I was day-dreaming about meeting my pals over lunch. Anyway...the invigilators who came into the class were a certain type of psychos! OH NO! Only one of them was. The other was ....tee-hee-hee..resembled my grand-pa! Nice isn't it? NOT NICE!

The class was nervous. We never faced such I-WILL-KILL-YOU-IF-YOU-TALK-TO-ANYONE sort of invigilators. Well, actually I faced the other guy just a few days ago. On the day of my maths-1-a exam. And believe me...that exam was a DISASTER. Oh no! I didn't spoil my exams because of that guy...no No copying either...it was just that people pulled my shirt from my back or kept poking me with the pencil..or kept bugging me to pass my paper written with answers. OK. don't give me that gross look...I AM A HYPER-SENSITIVE girl..I KNOW. Problem is..HOW DO YOU ACTUALLY GIVE A NO WHEN YOU HAVE TO? Well your conscience will prick you later though..but..seriously..giving a yes and a no at a very wrong time is..one, not a BIG, mistake in your life ...but..just that you regret later and that will make you feel HORRIBLE. Yes, it will. At least it did to me. I felt awe fully guilty when I knew it was impossible to pass my sheet of paper to provide answers to a girl who was actually caught by that invigilator's eye and has also been warned twice..and to a girl who seemed to flunk horribly! Well that is being uselessly sensitive..at least she should have prepared a little bit to PASS..but..SIGH! She was in such a pitiable state..and well I should have told her it would be impossible to pass my sheet considering the gap of a bench between us. Anyway...she knew it as well..and the invigilators kept an eye on her too. Sad but true..she left one whole damn section empty and left the hall sulking.
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What do you wanna know more? I died with guilt literally. I was the one who couldn't say NO and couldn't complete my paper on time..whereas that girl was continuing to ask..!
NO MORE GUILT NOW! All I wanted to post was...I swear I would want to get tougher and stronger mentally day by day..and sharper too. Cause once your conscience pricks you...you are your own job's victim. And yeah..being your own doing's victim is much painful and horrible. OK! OVER REACTING YOU THINK? true ... I think the same...anyway...I decided I'll give a firm NO to any person who's gonna make me do something I THINK is not worth doing. Poor kid..couldn't write well...but..poor me, couldn't say no and stop her having hopes on me. But well...wouldn't wanna give any more chances to this damn conscience to prick me much further.


P.S: MOM thinks am going to be a great STRESS MANAGEMENT GURU.

P.P.S: And yeah this time I gave her a firm NO..cause GURUING is not my job.

yawn...good night sleep now ..and yeah HAPPY INDEPENDENCE DAY TO ME...sad..my Independence won't even last for for 5 days. My great college is re-opening on 2ND of June. How shitty can a news get?