Yipiie!

This is going to be my best weekend ever. Mum and dad planned for a getaway to the out-skirts..and I'll freak my life out! Totally! I desperately prayed for a break and here you go! I love you God! :-) and mum, sis and me caught a movie yesterday...totally enjoyed it. I love you mom and dad! :-*


I'll post the rest later..mom and dad are yelling from the car, Gotta rush now. Good day!

A few random pics...

At New Delhi, couldn't resist taking a picture when they marched by!


I wonder where this came from?

This is pandora...one of my friend's rabbit.

To be or not to be...

Thank God I posted this at last! Seriously! I've never been able to blog recently...Thanks to my assignments.
Which is why I am not able to sleep too.

And here are people yelling at me for not taking proper care of myself and trying to work too hard. Little do they know, am trying to get a proper status in my class, where there are people triple times intelligent than an a normal human being.

And here am I, looking sheepish, enjoyed my whole first year and now struggling to get my basics right. Yeah! I know I shouldn't have been short-sighted. Small basics not known could ruin your life!
Now I say...why only me?

Because, I was pretty lenient toward my studies.
Because, I never knew the real essence of success.
Because, I never tried to.

You know something? People love to be positive at every moment of my life. But what do they do when hey face something horribly negative? Gulp it down and sulk? Or take it positive again? If they do take it positively..how do they convert the feelings?
Given a chance, I'd fill up my entire blog with millions of questions. I swear...you'd turn a pessimist by the end of reading them, but to me they are answers I badly want to know. No, am not trying to be a pessimist. It's just that I have mixed feelings in my heart, mind and soul. And...sigh...wish I was like my so-called-best buddy, who doesn't even err it shows. She doesn't need to care but she's one amazing girl I met. Totally focused on her goal, doesn't miss giving any shot. As soon as you enter the college, you find a huge poster of hers, happily smiling cause she achieved something a thousand others couldn't. She stood first in the state in my first year examinations. Now what was that? See...people like that inspire me..but also kill my confidence.

At times, I wonder if all that I am studying, will help me later in life? May be...may not be.
But that hunger to see you as the best among the best...will keep you fighting till the end.

I just wish that hunger bites me and stay forever, and hope I become someone like Jahnavi..at least to make my parents proud. (err..They never knew this side of me. I hate the fact that I am hiding it from them. Am scared to face their reaction.)

And yes, hope I attain a positive approach towards life. Hope...hope...hope......what is that? Do I recognize it?

Four things I crave!

7:00 am forever!

The alarm was buzzing loudly, the sun was already up and shined with all its might, the shine fell on my face and here I was still sleeping.

My younger sister, bugged with the alarm, got up and finished her home work. And I still lay asleep.

Note: This was what mum narrated to me after I woke up.

It was 7:00am. Now why on earth does sun come up so soon? I wish we only had winters. But that would be boring, cause then I would curse the sun for rising late.

Anyway, I didn't budge. The phone was vibrating, my sis was trying to wake me up, and my parents too tried their hand at waking me up. (err no! I haven't had any heart attack.)
Mum immediately declared I had high temperature and it would be my day-off.
At that moment guess who woke up? :-)

hAhahahaha no! I didn't want to bunk my college that day but, some how my heart said I needed a break. I was wondering how the classes would be in my absence..silent...serious...and strict.

Well I am not boasting, just that after they shuffled my classes, I was put into the class of studious kids...who have all the answers at the tip of their tongue.

And if there was any sort of disturbance, you'll know who did it.

sad I know. But am happy the classes will go seriously.Or not may be. ;-)

But yes, a few minutes ago my best pal called me up. She said,the class was let out for studying and they have only study hours now. This is getting to be a bore now.

Anyway, the whole house was pretty peaceful today, thanks to my inability to stand at a place for a long time..I hate running temperature. But mom tells me, they are good cause once in a while it makes you sit at a place and lets you work out with things. (this is in case of me.)

But I tell you, there's nothing as boring as sitting in your house with nothing to do. Yes, some crave for such a life but let me tell you, you'll end up having a fatigue and will vow never to repeat such works again. Of course, maths is an important part of my life. And that will be the only thing that will give me strength from nowhere and yes, weakness from nowhere too.

This is my teddy bear, yeah! You might think am still a 6 year old kid playing around..but I don't give a damn..yes I don't play around with it though..but...sometimes its wonderful..when you know that at least this stuffed thing could help you vent your anger..easily..! Err...Weird times are back ! Mum hates that word...she literally counts the number of times I say "Weird" and roll my eyes everyday! lol..anyway....7:00 am forever!

Episode 2.

Wow! Never imagined I'd post my second episode this soon. Anyway..it so happened that I made sure I would stay positive the whole of today. Yes, I stood on it. It is very difficult at times but well you have to remain positive.

Today was no great day. But yes, err remember the treat thing I told you about? Only two of them were present today. :-P

Yeah! The real jovial ones were present. The notorious ones err never mind..they are funny too :-p.

And yes, I had fun treating them after college. Treat consisted of a long 10minute chat and a quick bite of whatever we could find there. For the first time I paid for it.(After all who agreed to a treat?)

And what did I get? A huge smile from both of them and a bye too. (err..no person told that to me when I smiled back.)(Do guys say 'Bye'? Never knew.:-|)

Aaaah. Now that was one amazing thing that happened today. And the next incident was when a newly appointed sir for home tuition told "I should be aiming for CENT-PERCENT". Wow...that's kind of cool you know. Other wise I have a Chemistry Phobia.

Life's a lot of fun when you try going along with it. You know, when you are happy and accept what is happening around you and with you, you'll go along with it.

One of the guys who got treated today, told me..to keep practising everything I attempt. So that I gain confidence and will attack the same problem with much confidence the next time. Now, that was one valuable advice from him. Cool.

Anyway like I told you, small things talk big. These small things will have a huge impact of your life LATER. Thank you Anadit for "talking like dad" but I think being "dad" does help a few people in regaining their lost energy.
E.g: Me. :-)

Did I tell you I love the song "These are a few of my favorite things" from The sound of music?
Err..forget it if your are one of those punk metal or death metal heads. It wouldn't go into your head anyway. Kudos to my life and to people who make it worth living. Love you all.

16 till I die!

16. This number means the whole world to me. No, it is not my "lucky number". It's not even my roll number. It's the years I successfully lived on this planet.(?) Well I did have some not-so-successful moments too, but who would want to remember them at this moment anyway?

o.k I'll list out why am really happy today!Well thought I'd write this yesterday but today was a day I thoroughly enjoyed from the time I got up till now..and will enjoy till the last second.

I'll narrate the incidents.

5:30am: What a nice time to wake up! lol sad I slept back. Wanted to do maths. Maths is fun in the morning.(tee hee hee.)

7:00am: Damn! And I thought I'd go to the college very early to grab the first bench and rule it the entire day. Anyway..who cares..I'll have a great bath and read the paper and have a yummy breakfast and then leave for college. What a beginning!

8:37am: Wow maths class!
.
.
.
.
.
.
.12:50pm: Lunch..and guess what? I finished my entire lunch without anybody's help. WOW!

In the evening I umm err actually nothing SPECIAL happened. But these small pleasures give you a real great feeling and you'll be in great spirits the entire day. In the evening I joked around with people I was pretty scared of. I mean o.k for example there is this girl in my class who never talks much, she does her work that's it. And yes, she never pokes her nose too. O.k sounds boring but well wonder why she is so silent. And then guess who played the devil again? mwuhhaahaahahh!
I actually spoke to her for an entire 10mins and asked her to come home along with me too. And there you go. The first time I saw her smile. The girls in the class were shocked and surprised. And I ?
Energy rolled into me. Just making a girl talk? wow incredible.

And then, the class topper actually solved a problem from my text and there you go another injection of energy, I sat down and finished the whole excercise.

Next I get to know many people from my class. They are really nice. Wonder why people tell me 75% of the class hates me?

And in the end, these people I met ask a treat. :-P lol ...anyway..that's for tomorrow..at this moment am actually multi-tasking.

Texting my friend..(:P who else? Winnie the pooh!), trying to make my senior realize he is good and he shouldn't be cursing himself for silly-mistakes..and in the end wondering how I could top my class and prove I don't need special training.

:-) all is well that ends well. Simple sentence to explain my happiness. Well, i err find this post pretty weird cause I really don't know if you understood what I wrote..but well these small things are the ones you will keep treasuring them once you pass this stage.(I love being 16!)

Anyway..gotta help my two pals patch up now. Will get back with a new episode of my happiness and blog it away! :D

To the greatest dad on earth,

Yippee! For the first time dad didn't know we got him a card for Father's day. He was shocked and surprised as well. I got dad a card and wrote a few things I love about him on the back side. He just loved it and I got a huge bear hug this morning. Yeah!

Dad...one or the other day you might read this (or you must be reading it now also lol.), but I'll definitely not change the mater in this post even if you read it a decade later. :-) I am proud to have a great dad like you. Thank a lot for being the most patient person on earth. Thanks for being there with me even if you are hell tired. Thanks for saying "YOU did great" even when everybody knows I did horribly. Thanks for boosting my confidence when am sure am going to give it up. Thanks for letting me wear clothes you think are too weird. Thanks for playing catches even when mom is yelling loudly. Thanks for being the COOLEST dad on this planet.You'll always be my Idol.

What goes around comes back around....

That was the first thing I heard as I got up today.

Seriously.

My life's in a very weird stage. I have people around me constantly reminding me I have to some how work hard and get myself a nice seat in a university or whatever.

Then I wondered....it is a damn common phase in every kid studying like me.
(I hate that feeling actually!)

Anyway...can we put studies, lectures, manners and all the other crap aside?

Today was actually a different day in my life. Seriously it made a huge difference. I actually couldn't believe what I was experiencing. In the middle of my Maths class...tears were rolling out of my eyes.(err...I was crying!! They don't come just like that right?)

And why?

Because I was actually in such an idiotic mood that I could get nothing in my head when my lecturer was teaching me EXPONENTIAL and LOGARITHMIC series.

Actually I immediately took a sheet of paper and wrote down a few questions..that's my self-analyzing mood test.

1. What am I exactly thinking at this moment? *What the hell is in your mind DAMNIT!!*

2.Do I have any sort of an ache at any part of my body NOW?

3. Am I wondering why the hell am I not able to score marks in my exams?

4. Do I actually love myself? *bang your head and say you love yourself if you wrote a no!*

5. Can I actually do anything to prove myself at any moment?

the last question is

Will you forget your past and start afresh?

O.k the last question was the newly added one today.

If I wrote many No's ..then I get that period for relaxing as I am in a very Psycho sort of mood then.

If I wrote many Yes's then I am going to concentrate and work myself up to catch the speed at which my class is running as I am in a competitive mood then.

But today was different. Instead of giving a yes and no I gave a "MAY BE" for most of the questions.

Why?

Because I was surrounded by many many many students who could make me look like nothing if we were given an assessment test at that moment.

But hey so what?

I donot want to drag it any longer. It's easy. I developed a complex. An inferiority complex. The complex I helped people over come from. And now me? The victim of such a sick thing? Something I thought I was sure of not letting it occur to me.

But what made me get this complex?

Easy...

I was scared to venture. (Do I sound like I AM MY OWN DOCTOR?)

Lol I know you find it weird reading it. But yes, I am. I well got this phobia of trying out problems and get proper solutions for them when I entered into my new class.

Well sigh..can't do anything right?

Who the hell said that? I obviously can do so many things!
I actually decided to follow my heart and speak my mind out to every teacher who comes to our class without worrying about the sick glances I get from my fellow classmates.
I will (err SHALL is much appropriate right?) do better and break that complex as soon as possible.

I totally thank my maths sir who spent much time in convincing me that I can fight back my conscience and change myself for better. I took this condition for granted.How ridiculous can one be? THIS RIDICULOUS!!

PHEEEW! I feel so light now. Feel as if the whole burden on me has suddenly been taken off my back and am a free person now.

You want to know what I'll write for those mood-analyzing questions now?

1. Why do guys like acting emo sometimes?

2. Nope. I feel fit and fine as a fish! (err..fishes are active all the time right. I love their energy.)

3. Am not bothered actually. HEY!! I am. And I very well work hard to improve my results.

4. Well, I love myself but...Oh no! My head will hurt if I say NO. ;-) I loooooooooove myself!

5. At this moment? Well sure if I've gotta prove myself in being the best blogger in the family. :-P

6. Well shrujan will kill me if I tell him I added this question. At any cost, I will. What ever negative stuff I came across I'll definitely try ignoring it and start afresh.

This I promise myself. Thanks a looot for people who made a difference in my life.

Includes people I know, people I've known for ages, people I'll know and keep them in a special place in my heart etc. You get the picture right?

It sure is difficult but....

Yes, college is hectic! I should have known...would'nt have started blogging(?)..but yeah whatever. Life's cool. Managing to have fun...but ah does'nt matter.
Still manage to throw a smile even though I feel like shouting "STOP KILLING ME YOU *!^&*%#^&*!&#%(!!!!"..at college.
Have learnt not to talk a little too much to "CERTAIN" people.
Have learnt not to react to unnecessary stuff.
I also learnt that people you actually doubt about..like "do you think he/she thinks the same way I am thinking?" are true and less- selfish than people you mostly love to stick on!

Yes, in the end I love my people no matter what they think I am for posting it on my blog. Yes, I am a NORMAL girl to post that NORMALLY on my blog.

All this was not meant to be written actually...but..you see words just get typed when your fingers are on the keys. I love that actually! Well that's all actually..a real weird post..I know..

Anyway..gotta rush now! Loads of work to do and ...yes can't resist calculus you know! (Chuckles!)

This could be heaven or hell....

I am just 5 hours away from June 2ND. Tomorrow is going to be my first day (yeah right! In that same building, I hope we have different classrooms this year!) in my college. And yeah! This time, I'll be in the Seniors section( So what? Doesn't make a difference anyway. You WON'T get two horns anyway!) and yeah! We'll have new teachers teaching us new subjects(yeah right! Half of them whom we already know!)and best of all...we have practicals this year onwards..(now this is cool!).
But, don't you think the excitement is missing?

Of course it is! Remember the good old school days? I used to love packing to school. A brand new back-pack, brand new uniform, brand new pencils,stationary, brand new shoes, WHOA! Wasn't that lovely? I obviously played in the sun throughout the day and slept peacefully throughout the night. Yes, mom used to do the holiday homework ;-). And once in a while dad used to help her finish my chart work and cover my books with a brown cover. Life was fun then. Seeing your parents do your work is one thing a kid would LOVE to experience( do I sound a bit too devilish? hee-haw-haw!).

Way back..summer was the only time you could actually freak out! You could run away out of your house as soon as you are done with breakfast or..nothing at all.
But now?? Yes, we are growing up and have to find things we have fun doing....but..you still miss doing things you did way back when you DIDN'T ENTER YOUR TEENAGE!(If you don't then you are a very obsessed teenager or oldie obsessed with your age and work! C'mon give it a break!)

Well back to the present...(sigh!) wish you had a time-machine where you could instantly jump back to your innocent(?) childhood...no, am no grandmother talking all this...but yes, you surely would want to go back there, have loads of fun. Hey whoever said we can't have fun now too? ;-)

What a post I typed before the re-opening of my college!! My teachers would be upset reading this (does any one care?) but partly they themselves are craving for fun in their lives.(guess who's the great observant girl in the college?) Anyway..no packing this time. No new dress this time(did I tell you I miss a uniform very much?), no new things to carry except new text books and notes. WOW! I've got something new at last! And yeah obviously a new me...well I swore I'll work harder and smarter this year...YES! I KNOW! I should have done that last year but..(I HAVE A REAL POKEY CONSCIENCE!) umm better late than never right? (AHA! escaped!)

Anyway..hope I'll be as successful as my dad (I'd be one happy person on earth then!)...and be as strong as my mom (I am a very emotional kid! sob) and continue with a never-say-die attitude (say I AM DEAD! lol)..!


OH MY GOD! 4 and a half hours to go! Good time...see you.