Why is everything so intresting now? Never knew working of the Tangential galvanometer could be so easy..never knew synthesizing paracetamol could be really thrilling..just when I have 30 something days!
I only live on coffee nowadays...and chocolate doughnuts. In a dazed condition. Horribly confused. I'm even waiting for 10 seconds to type the next word. And am totally in love with enrique's voice. Spend my free time only with him. Somewhere..we have a connection..I feel awefully relaxed once he's on my player :). And I have this strange desire now, to sing with him.Wish he was 17. Anyway, my physics and chemistry records are pending. I've struggled horribly yesterday, trying to complete it. Gaurav came home, got me and mum a bunch of yellow roses. It must have been years since I smelt a bunch of flowers. Thanks gaurav.:)
We did our records together. Been to ccd again. Got the same stares I get from those waitors. Ordered the regular. Sat down and started my record. That place does give me a tummy ache, but that's one place I love.I wouldn't mind spending my holidays totally there. Today, I took a few of my pals there, had a doughnut. Got dropped home. And now..in a horrible mood. Am cutting out everyone. No wonder I blog only when am in a nasty mood. I wish I find my road, my direction, and what I really want in life. I wish I could forget shitty things, I wanna start all over again. All the things i did, hurt god knows how many, all those silly things i said, which pissed of too many kids, I wish i could clear out everything. But, life doesn't come with an UNDO option.
Ofcourse, I have an edit option. I wanna run away, to a place where I'll find only my favourite people, nobody else...! Can't wait for exams to get over. Can't believe I am less violent. And yes, I'll still be the same ol' Joey(lol! yeah, that's my new nick name.) with a lil extra humane nature.(just occured. How many times have I told that to myself? GOD! make me stable!Plllzzzz)
Love you all.

Me.

Vote of thanks.

I am trembling. Thanx for making my day a real spooky one. Yes, thank your beloved Karizma too. What was supposed to be a hospital visit, turned out to be a nightmare. Thank you Mr.Karizma for scaring me out of my skin. Thankyou, the rest of you, to think it was a once-in-a-life time experience. And thank you, for curing me from the fear, I've had since my kinder-garten. And thankyou God for not making me meet youknowwho, cause I know I would have been another freak after that(yes, I get a complex when am with youknowwho, (more)taller,stronger and sharper.). Thank you, for making me a psycho today, and also thank you for bringing me back to normal. Thank you for making me realise I deserve better things in life, be it anything, I deserve BETTER things. Thank you for making me such an unstable being, that I never really understood what I did all my life. Thank you for making me a peaceful human being today, cause I've been smiling since morning, hugged my mom like five times, and although missed out youknowwho, Nik made my day, went to see my friend who broke a toe and is in the hospital. And yes, thank you for making me a born liar. Amen.

Whatever!

I want to break free from everything pulling me back to be somebody else. I want to live in peace. I hate my conscience. I wish I didn't have one. I don't want to be rude and arrogant.
All I want is people to accept me the way I am instead of correcting me all the time. Let me live!