I'm tired of asking 'how?'. I wanna ask 'why?' every time they teach me something here.
From when have I started having headaches?
Now. 4 and a half hours and still going strong. Wow.
I wanna do so many things. Many as in TOO many.
On top of that, Mom thinks I pretend to be happy. What's wrong with people? I'm happy. It's okay. Stop worrying too much about me. I'm fed up.
I don't want to do this.
My head is going to split into two pieces. This is one of the killer headaches Sai keeps having I guess?
Never mind.
Love.
Monday, February 22, 2010
Thursday, February 18, 2010
Stunned.
I really don't know what to say. Why don't things always turn out to be the way I want?
Awesome. I guess I asked for it then?
Let's see.
Awesome. I guess I asked for it then?
Let's see.
Monday, February 15, 2010
Hunny bunny feelings!
And here I am! Back to my normal life. The same hostel room (with a new bed btw), the same insane college, the same classmates, the same old last bench and the same old laptop. My senior citizen laptop. What would I do without you baby? :\
So. Yeah. Too many things on my mind. :P Happy stuff obviously.
I can't hold this anymore. Sai, you have no idea how freaking happy I am. Like NO idea. Yeah, I know. It is perfectly fine if you freak out. Cause seriously, I never knew how it would be if the guy you're crazy about sends you a BIG something all the way from sand land. :)
You made my day. Thank you so so much. What more can I ask for?
I wanna write so much. But you know what? Somethings in life are best kept as secrets.
My laptop sucks. I need to clean my room. Saiganu, you're awesome.
Snigdha, stop being so dramatic and random.
Love.
So. Yeah. Too many things on my mind. :P Happy stuff obviously.
I can't hold this anymore. Sai, you have no idea how freaking happy I am. Like NO idea. Yeah, I know. It is perfectly fine if you freak out. Cause seriously, I never knew how it would be if the guy you're crazy about sends you a BIG something all the way from sand land. :)
You made my day. Thank you so so much. What more can I ask for?
I wanna write so much. But you know what? Somethings in life are best kept as secrets.
My laptop sucks. I need to clean my room. Saiganu, you're awesome.
Snigdha, stop being so dramatic and random.
Love.
Friday, February 12, 2010
This is 1.
I seriously want you to pack your bags and catch a train to nowhere. Anywhere but here. Please? I can't freaking take this anymore. Just vanish. Go away. Don't try to creep me out with your scary stuff.
No, I was weak. I'm not anymore. Just go.
Please. I have a life. LET ME LIVE IT MY WAY. I'm happy. Just go away.
No, I was weak. I'm not anymore. Just go.
Please. I have a life. LET ME LIVE IT MY WAY. I'm happy. Just go away.
Thursday, January 14, 2010
In my heaaad.
Remember Tapan bhaiyya told you about the balance one should maintain in life? And remember he also told you how life will throw you into situations where you will never be able to decide what you want?
All bullshit! Life will put you into situations like that to go through such bullshit and what do you do after getting out of it?
Okay okay. Wait. Before I write the actual stuff, I should talk about something happy.
I will tell you guys now okay? Yeah. I have a boyfriend. Tall, handsome and smart.
2 and a half years ago, I met him at an Ashram. I know. Wrong place. But ah, who cares?
He's back to India and I spent one and a half awesome freaking days with him at Vizag. The beach, the ice cream, the sheesha and the hugs.
And before I knew what was happening I was back to Hyd on the 9th morning. Yep, he's awesome. Now I can't stop talking to him. :)
I watched "3 idiots" and I get the point.
I think Shrujan, Aarthi, Amal, Rahul, Jhanvi and Malvika think I'm good for nothing. And that's one reason why I'm not really hanging out with them much. Another reason, they're being too protective. I dunno if that's good or bad. Cause when Nikhil was too protective, I felt suffocated. But hey! The others are you best friends. Let's see.
Tejas is a bit too busy to talk nowadays. He needs his space, I know. Okay. I'm not cribbing. Its just that.. never mind. Meanwhile, Pranay anna is ever ready to kick me and get me talking. I love you anna!
I'm shopping a bit too much nowadays. But hey! Atleast I'm showing some interest in myself.
What's hard? To digest the fact that people around you are waaaaaayyy better than you. Imagine getting grades like C- and C in your report card? Omg! If I was still in school, I'd stop playing tennis for a whole month and sit and get better.
But here? I freaking don't understand what color looks good with chrome yellow or which stitch is used where? I mean, wtf! I never held a needle for more than 10 minutes before. And now they expect me to stitch stuff and all. What about those weird exercises the Elements of design professor gives you? They're fun alright. But where are the freaking marks going?
Whatever I do, all I get is "No. There's something missing. I don't get what you want to express". If you freaking can't understand any of my work, why the hell are you expecting me to make something you'll understand?
People here have trained their minds to accept and love art and craft. What was I doing? Dreaming about calculus and organic chemistry. What now? Sit and try hard.
Wondering why I'm talking about this all of a sudden? Ah. My first semester's marks are out. I am hanging my head in shame. C- ? WHAT THE HELL!
And Daddy says " You passed, didn't you? Excel in your work. Marks will follow. Why did you watch 3 idiots anyway?". VERY nice. You have no idea what it feels like to get out of one semester with C-. You were a freaking topper since your birth!
And what's funny? The subjects I love are the non-core subjects. And here I am, doing awesome in my non-core subjects.
What is bothering me?
The feeling that people will consider me as a good for nothing kid. Its not that I expected myself to top my class, but hey! C-? Thu!
You know what? I'll do well this time. No matter what I have to give up, I'll do well this time. Maybe I've been to lazy to focus. But that's not me. I am not one of those dumb blondes.
Okay. Now I know what's it to be like the kid who neglects her studies. But, I prefer getting back to the old me, the one who gave a damn about her marks.
C- eh? Wait.
Oh. Happy(?)new year btw.
2010 no. Make it a lot more fun than 2009.
And when I cried cause I got such shitty marks, I wanted a huge bear hug. I'm going to hug the next person I see on my way to the canteen.
Till then, survive.
Snigdha
All bullshit! Life will put you into situations like that to go through such bullshit and what do you do after getting out of it?
Okay okay. Wait. Before I write the actual stuff, I should talk about something happy.
I will tell you guys now okay? Yeah. I have a boyfriend. Tall, handsome and smart.
2 and a half years ago, I met him at an Ashram. I know. Wrong place. But ah, who cares?
He's back to India and I spent one and a half awesome freaking days with him at Vizag. The beach, the ice cream, the sheesha and the hugs.
And before I knew what was happening I was back to Hyd on the 9th morning. Yep, he's awesome. Now I can't stop talking to him. :)
I watched "3 idiots" and I get the point.
I think Shrujan, Aarthi, Amal, Rahul, Jhanvi and Malvika think I'm good for nothing. And that's one reason why I'm not really hanging out with them much. Another reason, they're being too protective. I dunno if that's good or bad. Cause when Nikhil was too protective, I felt suffocated. But hey! The others are you best friends. Let's see.
Tejas is a bit too busy to talk nowadays. He needs his space, I know. Okay. I'm not cribbing. Its just that.. never mind. Meanwhile, Pranay anna is ever ready to kick me and get me talking. I love you anna!
I'm shopping a bit too much nowadays. But hey! Atleast I'm showing some interest in myself.
What's hard? To digest the fact that people around you are waaaaaayyy better than you. Imagine getting grades like C- and C in your report card? Omg! If I was still in school, I'd stop playing tennis for a whole month and sit and get better.
But here? I freaking don't understand what color looks good with chrome yellow or which stitch is used where? I mean, wtf! I never held a needle for more than 10 minutes before. And now they expect me to stitch stuff and all. What about those weird exercises the Elements of design professor gives you? They're fun alright. But where are the freaking marks going?
Whatever I do, all I get is "No. There's something missing. I don't get what you want to express". If you freaking can't understand any of my work, why the hell are you expecting me to make something you'll understand?
People here have trained their minds to accept and love art and craft. What was I doing? Dreaming about calculus and organic chemistry. What now? Sit and try hard.
Wondering why I'm talking about this all of a sudden? Ah. My first semester's marks are out. I am hanging my head in shame. C- ? WHAT THE HELL!
And Daddy says " You passed, didn't you? Excel in your work. Marks will follow. Why did you watch 3 idiots anyway?". VERY nice. You have no idea what it feels like to get out of one semester with C-. You were a freaking topper since your birth!
And what's funny? The subjects I love are the non-core subjects. And here I am, doing awesome in my non-core subjects.
What is bothering me?
The feeling that people will consider me as a good for nothing kid. Its not that I expected myself to top my class, but hey! C-? Thu!
You know what? I'll do well this time. No matter what I have to give up, I'll do well this time. Maybe I've been to lazy to focus. But that's not me. I am not one of those dumb blondes.
Okay. Now I know what's it to be like the kid who neglects her studies. But, I prefer getting back to the old me, the one who gave a damn about her marks.
C- eh? Wait.
Oh. Happy(?)new year btw.
2010 no. Make it a lot more fun than 2009.
And when I cried cause I got such shitty marks, I wanted a huge bear hug. I'm going to hug the next person I see on my way to the canteen.
Till then, survive.
Snigdha
Tuesday, December 15, 2009
Oh yay!
Welcome back my dear problems, I missed you so much.
I cannot go on this way. Its wrong and miserable. I hate my conscience. And I hate Lady Gaga for singing in my head all the time. Bah! Apart from my rambling, nothing much has been happening in my life. Except that I'm turning into somebody I don't know.
No, really.
I'm trying hard to remain strong, but YOU are my weakness. It is so weird, I'm drowning in the sea of confusion. But then, I will sort it out like I usually do. :)
This vacation, I wanna do something different. I want this time to be a memorable one. I'm playing around, dancing and eating all the time. :P and this December I have amazing plans. And I'm meeting this guy in January. Taking Harini along for a holiday. I am too excited to sit and sort my problems.
You know, sometimes I sit and wish for the whole world to turn into a fantasy land with the snap of my finger.
Love,
Snigdha
I cannot go on this way. Its wrong and miserable. I hate my conscience. And I hate Lady Gaga for singing in my head all the time. Bah! Apart from my rambling, nothing much has been happening in my life. Except that I'm turning into somebody I don't know.
No, really.
I'm trying hard to remain strong, but YOU are my weakness. It is so weird, I'm drowning in the sea of confusion. But then, I will sort it out like I usually do. :)
This vacation, I wanna do something different. I want this time to be a memorable one. I'm playing around, dancing and eating all the time. :P and this December I have amazing plans. And I'm meeting this guy in January. Taking Harini along for a holiday. I am too excited to sit and sort my problems.
You know, sometimes I sit and wish for the whole world to turn into a fantasy land with the snap of my finger.
Love,
Snigdha
Thursday, December 10, 2009
Conclusion
Ha ha ha.
And again. You are wrong. ha ha ha.
Now wait for the right time.
Had a weird dream this morning. It is so weird y'know. Saw P.S: I love you again. Like how many times have I seen the movie already? Movie is nothing great actually. But then.. :D its nice.
Me and Harini have been talking a lot about "perfect lives" blah blah. But then, nothing is perfect.
She wants a perfect guy, who'll tolerate her mood-swings, who'll not bug her, who'll inspire her blah blah blah. So do I. Isn't that in every girl's checklist?
Is having a perfect guy the last aim in life?
Ehh.
I know. Sometimes, you go crazy for somethings. And once you achieve them, you'll end up thinking "Is this it?".
Idon'tknowwhatIwantinmylife.
Yeah. That's that.
That's why people say. Happiness is a state. Enjoy while it lasts.
^^
Love.
And again. You are wrong. ha ha ha.
Now wait for the right time.
Had a weird dream this morning. It is so weird y'know. Saw P.S: I love you again. Like how many times have I seen the movie already? Movie is nothing great actually. But then.. :D its nice.
Me and Harini have been talking a lot about "perfect lives" blah blah. But then, nothing is perfect.
She wants a perfect guy, who'll tolerate her mood-swings, who'll not bug her, who'll inspire her blah blah blah. So do I. Isn't that in every girl's checklist?
Is having a perfect guy the last aim in life?
Ehh.
I know. Sometimes, you go crazy for somethings. And once you achieve them, you'll end up thinking "Is this it?".
Idon'tknowwhatIwantinmylife.
Yeah. That's that.
That's why people say. Happiness is a state. Enjoy while it lasts.
^^
Love.
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